I Miss you :')

So I had this person in my life, and she meant a lot to me, she still does, and this is to her, she will probably never see this, and I probably will never tell her any of this, I don't really even have a way to anymore, but I just, I need to put it somewhere. :')

WARNING LOTS OF RAMBLING BELOW, ITS ALSO TO ONE PERSON BUT YOU CAN READ IF YOU WANT IDK I JUST WANTED TO SAY THIS STUFF TO HER BUT I CANT SO YEAH :')
I should start this off by saying, you ruined my life. I mean, not really, but you messed it up pretty badly. you hurt my feelings a lot. I don't even think you knew you were doing it, but you did. I still miss you, it's been more then 1month now and I still miss you so much. you probably don't think of me anymore do you? i hope you are happier now, you deserve it. you were so broken, you didn't deserve any of it. you were a wonderful person, I'm sure you still are. I'm sorry I was such a bitch. I mean, I complained about you doing something that made you happy, I didn't realize it at the time, but I shouldn't have. I'm so sorry. I hope you are doing better, you blocked me everywhere, I mean I can't find you anywhere. :') I went through our old conversations the other day. it made me sad. we seemed so happy, but we weren't. everyone thought we were so great and happy. I didn't have the heart to tell them that we weren't. I still love you, I shouldn't, but I do, I mean I still think about you all the time. it's not fair you know? you just up and left, stopped talking to me all together, then finally just blocked me :') . I hope everything is good for you. I miss you, I miss you so much, I wish I didn't. I'm not mad at you anymore, I was mad at you for the longest time, but then I realized I shouldn't be. you were just doing what made you happy. I love you. I hope you are happy. I miss you and your beautiful face and your adorable laugh and your fake glasses and your rage. that's all I wanted to say. remember to always do what makes you happy, don't worry about other people.
((I wasn't sure if I wanted to post this but I decided and I did)) :') ILoveyou :*

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