Every Teen Storie

I wish that I could explain to you how much you mean to me. I was completely  a different person before we met. I was quiet, shy, never fully trusting another person. You’ve shown me that it’s OK to be who I am, and that the people who really love me won’t think any less of me for it. :') I wish I could tell you how much I love you. But there just aren’t words, are there? The friendship we have is the kind that only comes along once in a lifetime. The kind where we can know what the other thinks and feels without saying a word. You mean everything to me :') </3 I wish you nothing but the best in your new life. It breaks my heart knowing that I won’t see you every day. I genuinely hope that you find all the happiness you deserve. But I’m scared. I know it’s selfish, but I need you. And I need you to need me. :")  But it hurts me so much that you don’t even bother to check if I’m okay. I know that you aren’t the type of person to do that, but we’ve been friends for half...

I never thought I’d be crying this hard because of you again. I’m really hurt. Disappointed. Crushed. You chose your friendship with him over me. You chose him over me. Your happiness with him is what you value more than what we have. And that hurts a lot! You’d rather spend time with him than me. You’re happier with him around. And you intend to keep that no matter how jealous or mad I get in the future. :') &#128148; And I’m just being honest, I really can’t 100% trust you especially with him around. You’ll just gonna kill me with jealousy and insecurity every time you’re together. And I’ll never be okay with that. Because of him, there would never be a chance for us to be together. You don’t wanna be with me when I can’t 100% trust you. And since I don’t trust you that much, you decided you really can’t be with me. :') It hurts that this is how things end between us. Because of him. Because you chose hi...

Love. That’s what I thought you felt. That’s what I feel. and I can’t forget you as you did with me. Where did all of our moments went. Why did you just stop talking to me and started acting like we are strangers:') I can’t even look at you without crying. I see you and memories flood my mind of everything we used to be. You’re a stranger to me now. I told you how I felt about you, :) I told you. That was the first time I’ve ever told any of my crushes that. I’m not very good with talking about my feelings, and I like to keep them to myself. I told you because I felt comfortable, and know what you did? You shrugged it off, like it didn’t even matter. And know what? It fucking hurt. It still hurts. It hurts so much and I feel like you don’t even care. I wasted my time on you. I hate you, i love you, i hate that i love you. </3 :') 

I don't understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night.  How pictures never change but the people in them do.  How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend.  How forever turns into a few short months that you’d do almost anything to get back.  How you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without.  How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same.  How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare.  How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken.  How people can erase you from their lives just because it’s easier than working things out :') </3